The just isn’t me. Oh sure…it LOOKS like me but I’m not falling for it. This person who has to be tricked into thinking there is something to get out of bed for every morning is not the same person that used to inhabit this body. Mind you, she showed up a couple of weeks ago but it looks like that was to fool me into thinking that she’s all set to go and is just waiting on the sidelines to be called back into the game. But it turns out that was just a very dirty trick. She took off and hasn’t been seen since. The disappointment was devastating.
I’m not sure how long I’m supposed to be expected to wait for her return. I’ve put my life on hold for her but that doesn’t seem to matter in the least. She apparently has her own agenda and there is nothing I can do to persuade her to get back with the program. And it’s pissing me off to no end. This new person is boring, tired, and doesn’t care about or want to do anything. My new medication, which started out to be quite promising, has left me with leg cramps, nausea and constantly feeling like I have the flu. I even had my chiropractor “energy test” me for the new med and it didn’t go well. My body doesn’t like it and it’s not being shy about saying so.
So my optimism in my previous post seemed to have been a wee bit premature. I knew deep down that this was going to take some time but I still let myself get excited. Oh well…who wouldn’t I guess.
Damn bodysnatchers.
